"I thought you loved me?" I asked while continuing crying and bowed. I couldn’t look at him because I am hurting.
"Yes, I did," he replied.
"If it's true that you love me why would you leave me?" I look at him and but my tears continue to shed. "I already agreed to keep our relationship secret, didn't I? I already agreed even though I knew what I am doing is nonsense. Because I love you."
"Agatha," he said and hold my hands. "I'm dying."
"What, what are you saying?"
"I have prostate cancer, and I only have two months to leave," he replied and tightened his grip on my hand. "I'll take fast, cause my son needs my eyes."
"Vince,"
"Agatha, you're beautiful and adorable. Everyone will love you. Don't cage yourself on me. I am a worthless person, I am sorry. You can find better than me."
"Vince, I love you. I can't let you go of you easily. I need you." He pulled me closer to him then hugged me tightly.
"You can, Agatha, you're strong, please take care of yourself."
"Vince,"
"I did love you, Agatha, sorry if I used you once, but God knows that I loved you."
"Don't leave me." But he didn't answer instead, he kissed my forehead and lifted my face.
"I will treasure you in my heart." And he kissed me on my lips. "You will be here until my last breath."
I AM HERE ONCE AGAIN, visited Vince's grave.
I came here every week for more than four years. Four fucking years but still I can't move on that he's gone. I can't still accept that he leaves me.
No one knew what I felt when he's gone. No one knows what we are. What we have.
Aside from Ashley who remained silent about what happened then and Eugene who doesn't care. Maybe Ley knows also but who cares?
For more than that 9yrs, he is still the one person I want. Since then I have not been able to love others.
I missed him, I miss his hugs, his kisses, his touch. Everything on him. The way we talked, we laughed, and the way he let me feel that I am special.
Sometimes I thought, if I could have forgiven him, and given him a chance to explain then, would we really have stayed together?
If I did show up to him, would I be able to change Ley in his heart?
Sometimes running, turning, and avoiding is not enough to continue living.
You have to face the truth and instead of finishing something that you think will hurt you forever. You should try to fix it first rather than throw it away completely.
Because maybe when you see it again it can't be yours. Until you just live every day with I WISH, WHAT IF, WHY, I HOPE.
I WISH I GAVE HIM A CHANCE.
WHAT IF I ACCEPT HIM AGAIN INTO MY LIFE?
WHY DID I LET HIM GONE FOREVER?
I HOPE WE ARE HAPPY NOW.
I am a prisoner of love because of my stupidity.
I didn't move on because of what I did. Because of my stupidity, I lose him. Now, I am waiting for him to come back even though I know it's impossible. And because I still can't let him out of my heart. Here I am, going with any man and venturing to find someone like him, and re-feeling the old heartbeat that I have never felt since he disappeared.
VINCE. Who is to blame for what happened to us?
Me of staying away because you hurt me or you who is hurting me? Kyla who is the reason I got hurt or Ley who you couldn’t let go of? Can I still find in others what I saw in you? Can I feel for others the way I feel for you?
Maybe I'll just continue to live and wait for you again even though I know I have nothing more to wait for.
A/N: PLEASE READ THIS NOTE
This is Her Ex-husband's Wrath Sequel Side Story of Vince and Agatha
