The room was spare, only the sound of water in the aquarium was heard. I chose to look down while playing with the car keys. Mom looked at me sharply, next to her Jessy highlighted me with a sharp look. They shouldn't all be surprised. Wasn't my attitude more than enough to prove it?
"Decide on him, I don't want you to see him again. Starting next month, you will marry Jessy."
I'm just silent, not talking since mom asked me to meet 30 minutes ago. Although this is a free country, it still does not rule out the possibility of same-sex lovers like me to establish an open relationship. I rubbed my hair back, ignoring my mother's words at all.
"Grey, did you hear me?" Mom tapped the table firmly to grab my attention. I lazily looked at his face. For God's sake, my mother was the first human being to be close to me, taking care of me from small to growing. She was the single most special human being beyond anyone in my life, but why couldn't she understand my wishes? Why did she force her will on me?
"I don't want to marry anyone. If there's anyone in this world I want to say, it's Jason."
I stood up and prepared to leave. I'm not a kid to be determined. The world considers this relationship unhealthy, the world considers this a disgrace. Why? My love for Jason is true. He's everything to me beyond the thousands of women in the world. How many times should I say I don't like women? I hate them!
"Grey, wait!"
Jessy stood up, the woman walking towards me with her face squealing. Cih, I hate to see that face. She plays a good son-in-law in front of mom, heh? She who had made our relationship all those years ago crumble, she who has made me switch lanes. Just say it all because of him. Another reason is because I don't have a passion for the opposite sex.
We broke up because she slept with another man. I wasn't a possessive boyfriend. I didn't limit anything to her activities and who she went with. But if I've slept with another man, I can't forgive her. I love her wholeheartedly. Before, I met Jason. I love her more than anything. My feelings were just being a toy for her, she never appreciated in the slightest. Now that I love Jason, she wants to come back to me. Is she crazy?
"Is it because of my betrayal that you're like this? I didn't think it would make you turn away from your real gender."
"What do you mean? Turning away from my original gender? I'm still a man, I don't changed my gender. I just like my gender and it's not a mistake. m Why do you think it's a mistake just because I don't love you anymore. Oh, no, just because I don't like women anymore. My passion for women is gone and it's not because of breaking up with you. I chose this path, so don't ever assume that you are special in my life. People like you should be released, right?"
"We can fix it from the beginning, Grey."
Jessy touched my hand, my reflexes immediately brushed off her hand. "What needs to be fixed? Do you think I'm a broken thing?"
Although not all of them, the majority of people on this earth always think of LGBT as something bad. What they think is good is not true. Because for ourselves, LGBT is both true and kind. Why humans in this world are created paired with the opposite sex, while pairing with the same sex alone can be this happy.
Well, some might think this is an abnormality, but I don't think so. It's a gift that I didn't know when it started. I'm not ashamed to have to join LGBT people out there. I also know that I don't like women. This is my way and I have the right to determine my happiness.
What I hate most about this is that humans too often judge and determine a person's fate. Even though they know nothing about a person, people always blame others when they consider themselves right. If you seek the truth, what is the truth? If absolute truth exists in this world, then man will have one conviction and one understanding. Everyone thinks I'm weird and people like me are weird too.
For God's sake, I did not go beyond and dispute what God had set for me. My gender is still male and I still behave like a man. I never tried to change my gender, or do anything like a woman. I'm spoiled with my boyfriend, but that doesn't mean I have to behave like a woman, right? Why do most people think that same-sex lovers also change their nature and personality? But the truth is not like that.
Explaining to people who don't understand our circumstances is a waste of energy and time. I sighed slowly, looking at Jessy with a look that I knew she must have thought that I was tired. I've been dating Jessy for a long time and I've known her for a long time. We're middle school friends. She knows how my nature is inside and out, she knows my habits.
If I answer the women out there are indeed many, let alone those like her. She would have thought that I had changed course because of her. If I explained why I could like being gendered, she definitely wouldn't understand. All of that will take up the time I have. I glanced at my watch. It was time for me to go to college. Me and Jason were my boyfriends from college and that was the first time we met, then we got to know each other. Although we are not in one faculty, our meeting is quite unique.
"I don't want to prolong this matter, you better go home because I want to go to college."
I turned to my mother, giving her a kiss from afar. "I went first, Mom. I hope that when I get home, there's no discussion like this anymore. For you yourself, know that goodness in your opinion is not the truth in my opinion."
