"Hey, Andrei, what happened? I guess you're so quiet now? ” I commented to my boyfriend. I have noticed his silence since I arrived.
We are in a restaurant. I was at home earlier when he invited me to dinner. I wouldn't have gone but he said he had something important to say. So here I was, I was immediately rushed to our meeting place.
"Hey! What’s wrong with you? ” I smiled as I looked at him.
"Andrei, speak up. Tell me. What's wrong with you?" I said calmly. I even held his hand resting on the table.
"Babe…" he said softly and then looked straight into my eyes. “I-I’m sorry…”
"Sorry? For what? ”
"Kathy is pregnant."
"W-what did you say?"
"K-Kathy is pregnant."
"R-really? But she didn't inform me yet."
Kathy was my friend. Not just a friend but my best-of-the-best friend. She was like a sister to me because we were so close to each other. But if Kathy was indeed pregnant, why didn’t she tell me? I was her best friend but she hid it from me even more.
"B-because it's — m-mine."
I suddenly choked on the food I was chewing. “W-what are you saying, Andrei? T-that's a bad joke. It's not funny!" I said after drinking the water and trying to calm my voice.
"I know you’ll never believe this mess, but it’s true. I-I got her pregnant… ” he said as he lowers down his head.
"Can you please stop it, Andrei!” I sighed as other people who were also eating there turned to us.
"B-but it's true, Charm." He was still bent over.
I was suddenly stunned and it was as if the rotation of the world had stopped. It was as if I was struck by the fact that he was saying that I was trying to deny myself.
What the hell is happening ?! Oh, God.
That's why Kathy was different from me, she betrayed me. I treated her like my own sister! Damn it! damn her!
When my feelings subsided and I understood everything Andrei was saying I suddenly move. I grabbed my shoulder bag and walked out of the restaurant.
As I walked I felt the tiny teardrop down my cheeks. I didn’t notice it! all I could feel was the pain inside my heart.
Of all people, why Kathy? Lots of others out there. Oh, God, the pain of what they did to me is really hard to bear. Both of them were special to me.
I was close to my car when someone suddenly grabbed my arm and forced me to stop walking. When I turned around, I immediately saw Andrei's sad eyes.
A slap full of anger immediately slipped out of my hand. I was still not satisfied and I slapped on his other cheek again.
“Don’t touch me!” I said and immediately wiped away the uncontrollable tears.
"I deserved it," Andrei said while caressing his reddened cheek.
“Yes, you deserve that! More than that! ” I almost shout at his face.
“I-I’m sorry. We don’t both intentionally— ”
“Do you hear what you are saying? Huh? That you didn't want it? Oh, come on! You like it, you like it! And You both fooled me! ”
“No! It was an accident, babe. we were both very drunk and we didn't know what was happening that night,” he still explained.
“Don't make a fool of me, Andrei! You know, if you really love me, you should stay away even if you're drunk. You're weak! You didn’t think of me so it has happened. My God, Andrei! Why Kathy? Of all people, why my best friend?” My tears fell and I couldn’t stop it again.
He just bent down and couldn’t look at me directly.
I would have turned my back on him when he stopped me again.
"I love you, babe."
"You love Me? No, you don’t love me! because if you really love me, you shouldn't be tempted to try something that will hurt my feelings. Of all people, it's Kathy!”
“I’m so sorry, babe. I understand what you feel and it’s my damn fault. Please forgive me,” he weakly apologized.
"It's over!" I said and removed his hand from my arm. Yeah, it was over. There and there we go. Maybe we weren't meant for each other.
“No! I will not allow it. Please, let’s talk ‘this’ first, babe. Please. if I could only bring it back that day, I would, to correct that mistake of mine. Please, babe, give me one more chance, please? I'll fix it, promise. Just don't drive me away,” he pleaded and took my two hands again.
I burst out laughing. “I hope you thought of that before and did nothing to ruin our relationship, Andrei! I hope you thought about the consequences before you did any mistakes.” I said, still in tears. I tried to get out of his grasp. “Maybe… maybe we’re not meant for each other, Andrei. Maybe it happened because we really aren’t for each other.” I was shaken. "Maybe there is a reason why this happened."
“Don’t, babe. I still want to build a family with you. Please. Let us still keep our oath. we don’t have to end this all just because of her, of that baby,” he still pleaded.
I was surprised by what Andrei said. I looked him straight in the eyes. “Just because of that baby? Do you hear what you are saying? You know, if you don't have a conscience, then, I am not like you who is heartless. If you have no quilt to do that to the child, then, don't think I am. The child is not to blame for what you did to me so don't be like that! You have already made that mistake so you must stand up!” I shouted at him. "I'm not going to be grateful every day with you while I'm hurting an innocent child."
“Please, Charm. I love you. I love you, babe, please. I will do everything, I will still marry you.” This time he cried too.
"If you really love me, Andrei, then, please hold that child accountable."
He shakes his head. “I can't do what you want. You are the one I love. It's only you, b-babe. ”
"Prove it. Be a true man for the child even if you didn't plan it. Have mercy on that little child, for Christ’s sake, Andrei. Don't count the child among others who have no family.”
“I don’t want to be tied to a life I don’t want, Charm. Just ask anything else, just don't let me do that, please.”
“Then it’s your choice, Andrei! But it doesn’t mean that I will continue to be in a relationship with you,” I said. “Bye. T-thank you anyway. Because you didn’t hide it from me. even though you hurt me so much, and at least I found out early.”
I turned around completely and didn't look back even Andrei called my name. Every time he called and begged, my heart seemed to be choking. I cry every step I take away from him.
I quickly got into the car and immediately started the engine. I saw Andrei move next to my car and slightly knocked on the glass. I looked at him and saw his face full of tears. I knew he was hurt, but the pain I was feeling was worse.
I did not show any mercy. I hardened my feelings. I don’t want to feel sorry for him because he doesn’t deserve that. I will accept what happened but it wasn’t that easy.
while driving I remembered the good things that had happened in the few years we had been in a relationship. All the good memories are unfortunate. We even swore that no matter what happened we would still be in the end. That everyone will go to the wedding. We have so many plans for our future life. but he himself ruined it. He himself destroyed it.
Andrei swore that he would never fool me and make me cry. But what did he do? He betrayed me! And worse, he betrayed me with my best friend.
Suddenly I stopped driving because I feel I could no longer breathe in tears. I slammed the steering wheel of the car.
I hate you! I hate you! I hate you both!
They wasted everything, including the huge trust I gave them. I still can't believe that everything I have, my boyfriend and best friend was already gone. Maybe the saying is true, 'met, but not destined'.