Finally
who would have thought this day would come ,
it's been 10 years since I got married to drew
Oh what a beautiful day it was I was very happy that I'm getting married to my heart beat the love of my life ,my oxygen
Finally I get to be called Mrs Erica Andrew Williams
Looking back at the days we spent together who would have thought such a beautiful union would turn out to be a complete waste of time filled with sorrows pain and anguish.
After my first child which I had through C's,after 2 hours of surgery my baby still died leaving me with a very big hole in my heart
Later resorting to me having PTSD for 4 years
Drew always making me feel worthless about myself that I'm not woman enough to bare a child, telling me every day that I'm too lazy that's why I killed my child with my lack of strength,that if I was woman enough I would have given birth to our child the way ever woman did
I keep wondering what type of husband is this always inviting me for every kids birthday party,every baby shower ,always telling me about what a colleague child did at home a day before.
Just once,when I asked him why he keeps on telling me what is going on in every parents life in his office,
He immediately flay up shouting and throwing things everywhere screaming at the top of his voice that he want me to feel the same way he does every single day.
After so many years of trying to get a child failed ,It just registered in my head that I'm truly worthless even to be a mother
Back to the present day.........
I woke up feeling really happy after so many years,
Last night drew came back home early and happy i was so shocked by his sudden change he took me by my hand and asked what I made for dinner "which I told him corn bread and pasta with roasted veggies he smiled and asked me to set it down at the dinning table,he then ate my food after so many year."
He ate my food after so many years
He kissed me and hugged me tightly
I felt good after so many years
He gave me a red box wrapped with the most beautiful ribbon
I opened the box only to find the most beautiful long pink dress,only made for a princess
"He then whispered into my ears that it was for me to be worn the next day which is today."
I was in shock,I asked him what's the occasion he said with a very big smile on his face,"don't you remember tomorrow would be our anniversary"
I was in so much shock that he remembered, feeling confused by his sudden change and affection towards me.
Thinking to myself what could be the reason for this,is something wrong could my constant pleading to him have caused this
I don't care what made him change as far as he is treating me well
I'm happy
