Alyssa stared at the pregnancy test result on her hand in shock. She wasn't expecting to take in again after what had happened the last time. How did this manage to happen?
She bit my nails nervously as she thought of the next step to take.
"Should I tell Ezekiel?" She asked herself.
"I can't!! I can't let what happened the last time repeat itself." She muttered immediately the thought of what his reaction to her news would be flashed in her head. The mere scene of what happened the last time she told Ezekiel about her pregnancy still sent shivers down her spine.
Even though it's been three years, it is still so fresh in her memory. She couldn't forget the hurtful words he said to her when she broke the news of her pregnancy to him.
"A weak and wolfless mute like you can never bear my child, the future Alpha of our pack!!" She could still remember the dark look in his eyes as he stared at her deeply, rather glared at her like she was a criminal.
She was indeed a criminal to him. She was the reason his life was ruined. If she never existed, he wouldn't have been paired with a mute and weak Omega like her, he would have been happily married to the love of his life Cindy, not like they aren't happily in a relationship now.
But still, it wasn't her fault. She didn't make the moon goddess pair them together as fated mates. It wasn't her fault that she lost her memories, her voice, and her wolf at a young age.
Even after spending most of his time with his lover, he still loathes her deeply. Even after all she had done to be a good wife to him all these years, he still treats her like a piece of trash.
They were never always like this. He used to be so much friendlier to her before. She could still recall when she first stepped foot in the pack even though it's been ages.
She was only eight years old and the last surviving wolf from her pack. She was brought in by Ezekiel's father after a sudden rogue attack on her pack that made her lose her family, her pack mates, her voice, and her wolf.
Ezekiel's father and her father were best of friends and that was the reason he took her in. She was immediately welcomed into the family by the Crawfords, well except Emma, Ezekiel's sister. Even though she was always bullied for being mute and wolfless, she was able to endure it all because of Ezekiel.
He took really good care of her like she was his younger sister and protected her from all of her oppressors, including his sister, Emma but all these ended when ehe turned eighteen and discovered he was her fated mate.
"Why the hell is it you? Everything ruined!" He roared at her as his eyes turned wild. Instead of elation, Ezekiel only felt angry when he felt their bond for the first time.
His hurtful words stabbed her like millions of knives. She have always loved Ezekiel since the first time she set her eyes on him so she was so glad to be his fated mate but obviously, he didn't want to take it.
For no other reason than he was already in a passionate relationship with his lover, Cindy, who's the daughter of a Beta, beautiful and capable, completely superior to her in every way. Though she didn't want to admit it, Cindy was a perfect Luna candidate.
So she didn't blame Ezekiel and she was even prepared for rejection. However, none of them expected Ezekiel's father to make it his last wish that Ezekiel needed to marry her as his Luna if he wanted to be the Alpha. Then, it was the beginning of his undying hatred for Alyssa.
For five years of being married to him, Alyssa had hoped that he would finally warm up to her and love her the way he should but those were all mere wishes. As a mute Luna, she was nothing but a source of shame for Ezekiel so he always made sure she was invisible to the public.
Everyone knew he was already married but no one knew she was his wife so because of that, she wasn't respected the way she should be. Seeing that her protector had turned his back on her, Alyssa became prey to more bullies and insults from everyone, including the servants.
Alyssa was still deep in her thoughts when she heard the sound of the bedroom door being opened. Out of fear of being caught with the pregnancy test, she quickly hid it in a drawer and emerged from the room's closet she had earlier locked herself in.
In the room, she was faced with a staggering Ezekiel. His face was so red; that it seemed like he had been drinking. When she noticed that he was almost losing his balance, she rushed over to help him.
As she held him in her arms, the sparks went through her spine and her core immediately got wet. She felt ashamed but it was not something she could control when her fated mate was close to her. She was made for him. But she seemed to be the only one who could feel this.
Ezekiel was always so disgusted by her touch that he wouldn't allow her when he was sober. She pulled his heavy body with her and placed him on the bed. He was so heavy that she collapsed on top of him.
Realizing that we were in really close proximity to each other, the butterflies started fluttering in her stomach again. She didn't know if it was the progesterone, which made her crave this moment in his arms even more.
Sh wanted that someday, he would finally accept her; kissing her and claiming her in the way she dreamed. However, a reddish mark on his neck awakened her as if cold water poured down from her head.
It was a lipstick mark and there was only one person who would ever have the audacity to mark him this way. He was drinking with Cindy again. What else
could they have done together?
She didn't want her imagination to run wide as it would only hurt her so she shook the thoughts away as she squeezed her tears back. Like a good wife, she laid him well on the bed and took off his shoes for him.
She tried to hand him a glass of water so it would help him sober up a bit but he suddenly sat up and shoved her away, making the water spill all over her clothes.
Alyssa gasped in shock as she stared at the mess he had made on the floor. She took in a deep breath and was about to pick up the fallen cup when he suddenly held her hand.
She was shocked in her spot, wondering why he took the initiative to hold her when he suddenly pulled her towards him, making her sit on his lap. What's going on??
She raised her head and stared at him, noticing the familiar red in his eyes. She knew it was their mate bond working. Following his glance, she then realized that the spilled water had wet her nightgown showing her curve.
She didn't want him to mistake anything and wanted to leave and change but he already gripped her chin harshly like he was being forced to do so and placed a deep, painful kiss on her lips.
He didn't care if he was hurting her and kept biting on her lower lips like he wanted to chew it off. When he had his fill, he pushed her on the bed and started to tear off her clothes.
As her body was completely naked underneath him, he attacked her fragile
body with deep, painful kisses and bites. Afterward, he took off his belt and trousers and forcefully pushed all of his length inside of her not caring to let her adjust to him.
Ezekiel, was always dominant and Alyssa was always the one who suffered in silence during their sexual encounters but for a moment this time, she wanted to resist a bit, fearing for the safety of her baby. This, however, somehow aroused his desire to conquer and banged her harder.
Alyssa wished she could speak so he could know how she felt. But without her voice or wolf, she could only cling to him and match his movements, giving her mate and husband what he wanted.
It was long fierce sex until dawn. He finally let her go after he released inside her several times. He stood up and put on his trousers before adjusting his belt.
His eyes were back in sober again. "Just because I shared the bed with you today doesn't mean I'll ever acknowledge you as my Luna." Alyssa's heart clenched in pain but her throat couldn't make any sound.
"Cindy will always be the one in my heart, don't you ever forget that!!" He
deadpanned, giving her one last cold stare before leaving. A lone tear escaped her eyes when she heard the door was slammed.
Even though this wasn't the first time he was saying those hurtful words and doing these harsh things to her nor will it be the last time, it still hurt her deeply.
She curled up in agony, tears streaming down her face.
"Why should all this happen to me? Am I not worthy of love just because I'm mute and have no wolf?" She thought to herself.
She sadly looked down at her flat belly and held it softly.
"At least, I was no longer lonely now. Whether Ezekiel would love me or not, I still have my baby. And I would try my best to survive with my baby." She muttered to herself with a soft smile.
