Rishav's POV
I watched myself in the mirror. I can see the man who lost everything, lost every needs, lost the life. My face looked tired and my beard growing longer. I sighed looking at myself. What I was and now what I am. I lost my all energy after losing her. I looked at the mirror again and looked behind my reflection. There she was smiling at me. Just her smile used to make my day. But now this smile just stayed on the image of her. The green wall was decorated with two birds drew with tree branches and flowers. She decorated it herself. She was so exited that day. I can still remember it.
I can hear the loud sound from outside. Today is my lovely sister's wedding and what I can do is missing her. My sister Jaanbi is getting married with the one who she love. Stepping into a new journey of her life. I am happy for that, and why should not I? She is my princess. From childhood everyone in the family pampered her a lot. After losing my parents she become the only priority of my life until my love stepped on the door of my heart. It's because of her my sister finally able to get her love and but in the process I lost mine. I closed my eyes at the thought of that day.
"You know I miss you so much right?" I asked looking at the image who kept smiling at me.
"Every passing second, every hour, every day of my life" I said still looking at her beautiful face. She made my life like heaven but that already gone the moment she left me.
"I am dying here love, it has becoming more difficult to pass every seconds. I can't survive alone please come back" I whispered to myself though I know its just a wish which can't fulfil ever. I lost her!
"Bhai" I heard my sister's voice. I turned and found her in wedding dress. looking so beautiful. She stood on the door step with sad eyes. Her eyes showing the pain that she was trying to hide.
"Oh! You are ready" I said placing a smile. She nodded her head. I gestured her to come in.
"You should be in your room. What are you doing here?" I asked her. Today is her wedding and she is in my room. She walked towards me and suddenly hold my hand.
"After mom and dad, I was with you" she said and looked down. I frowned at her. She looked up again " and then she came, but today no one of us will be with you. She left though she never wanted" she said turning her head towards the image and than back to me "and I am going to leave you. Why this is happening?" She asked me looking in my eyes. I smiled at her words. Inside I want to scream at my top lung but I know I can't.
"Why are you talking like this. Today is a important day for you" I said ignoring the fact that from today onwards I am going to be alone.
"Bhai can you promise me something if I ask you?" She said more like a question. I looked at her seriously.
"Just tell me" I said encouraging her. This is first time she asked for something that too on her wedding day. How can I reject her? She sighed before speaking again.
"Be happy in life. I know you are not happy in this stage but I want you to move on and be happy. Please find someone who can make you happy" she said with teary eyes. I smiled. Sily girl, she is worried about me. But the truth is....
"I can only be happy with her" I said pointing towards the picture. "She is only one who is capable of handling me" I added to make her understand.
"But bhai you can at least try" she protested.
"I can't" I turned away from her. I know she is worried for me but it does not meant I can follow her words.
"She won't be returning back bhai. You can't spent the whole life like this" she said behind me. I closed my eyes.
"She promised me that she is not leaving me and she will back for me" I said in calmed voice. How long I can hold on that promise?I asked myself.
"Please take my request bhai. Today is my wedding and please don't deny it" she pleaded. She does not have any idea what she is asking for. She is asking something which I can't do. She can't even imagine the turmoil I have in my mind and heart. I turned to look at her.
"Fine, this is your last wish I will do it" I replied her. Her eyes widened in shock but somehow managed to grinned at me.
"I am so happy-" before she could even complete her sentence I cut her off.
"But only if you can find that face" I said pointing to the picture who is smiling. I turned to my love. Her image is tattooed in my mind and my heart. Who can replace it? So I tricked my sister.
"What? How could that be possible?" She asked me while I walked near the picture. I traced my finger on her face.
"Her image is in my mind and heart, I can't even imagine other face on it. If you could bring her than I will thought about it.
"You are asking something which is impossible bhai" she replied signing. I turned to her.
"Now you got the point?" I asked and she looked at me confusingly. "You were asking to find someone else when my heart, my mind and my soul belong to her. I can't give it to other because she took it with her" I explained her. She looked at me with sad face. I walk to her and patted her head.
"I know you are worried for me but I assured you, don't think too much, I will be fine" I said smiling.
"I promised her bhai to make you happy but I failed to keep my words because I know that promise will only fulfil with her" she said and tears rolled from her eyes. I wipped it away.
"Silly girl, you did not fail, it just fate wanted like this. Today is your wedding and you shouldn't ruin your pretty face or Armaan will faint when he see you" I joked at last to lighten her face. She smiled while wipping her tears.
"Shut up" she said slapping on my arms.
"You should go to the room the wedding will be start in few minutes" I said looking at my watch. She nodded and slowly walk to the door but turned around and looked at me.
"I am sorry bhai" she said before walking out. I sighed and closed my eyes.
Soon the time is finally come and my sister tied knot with her love. From today she will be stepping into new journey leaving all behind. A starting of new life. I smiled at them. If she was here she would happy for them. At the ending Jaanbi cried a lot making me cry too. She was leaving me for good and now I am going to be alone forever. After a hard struggle I manage to sent her with her husband. I watched their car disappeared in the dark leaving me behind.
I walked back to my room where her memories stayed with me. I looked at the picture and smiled.
"I am back love" I said before changing in night cloth. I laid down on bed and placed my hand on the side where once she used to sleep. A tear slipped from my eyes. I missed her so much. I pulled the pillow of her and hugged it tightly. Her smell is gone but in my mind she is still here with me by my side. I closed my eyes drifting into the land where I can find her and know the fact that I will be all alone when I will open my eyes.
*Key Term*
Bhai - Brother
