I have always wanted to know how life in college goes...I always imagined about having my own personal space and living a life outside the shadows of those surrounding me! And boo,I got it!..am now enrolled in a medical college and my life has been going the way I always imagine! No mom,no dad,most exciting no Jaxon! My bro who always intimidate me...
Its been two months and things are going just okay! Made friends,well yeah just friends and am invited to a birthday party!...what a start!...well,I got my first college kiss from this guy...probably not my type but who cares?!! Am in college!.
I made out with this guy and things kinda went with the flow, we had this k-drama type of love,it was like we were only fantatising all of it!..well,things didn't actually end well and I didn't care about it or about fixing it,by then my head couldn't really decide what to do!..there was this guy,he was so funny and romantic at the same time!..we messed around for like two weeks and couldn't keep up...
From there I realised i was just being a b*ch...so I laid low and cooled my head for a while!..it took me one whole month till I decided to see another man!..
It happened!.a guy just dm'd me and we started chatting as if we knew each other...it was like a soulmate tie!..things got serious between us...we were very controversial...in religion, point of view...but we tried to make it work!..oops,its two months now since am dating this guy and I realized am pregnant! I freaked out and I told my brother first, he didn't judge and he told me to talk with the guy first and see what to do with it...well my bestie knows about it too since she was the one helping me with the tests...I had no clue about these kinds of things!everything is new and going on too fast!
I decided to tell my boyfriend am pregnant...as expected,he freaked out and he told me we can't keep it!..it was for the best but my heart broke just by the thought of it...
We did it,me and my boyfriend aborted the baby,he was the one taking care of me...then it was all over and was the most painful experience I had ever encounterd!..we continued with our lives like nothing ever happened...its four months now since I have been dating with my boyfriend!..everybody around me is changing! My best friend is annoying the hell out of me by acting like a slut and wishing the worst for me and my boyfriend,my boyfriend is changing and I can't control it,my dad and step-mom are having problems which affect me directly and am just so confused!.thanks lord I have another friend,his name is Lauren and he is like an angel sent to heal every broken part of me...he is like a brother to me...
Its five months now and am still enduring everything I've been going through...I lost my best friend and was okay with it cuz then I realized she was never really a friend! Just a snake covered in beautiful feathers...it didn't take long,it was one week to our sixth month anniversary,then I found out that my boyfriend have been cheating on me and taking me for a fool...sending my chats to his friend and telling him that am too much!..it really broke my heart but I had to end it!.it was toxic and was draining me...as always,he acted like he knew nothing,but I moved on anyway...
My ex's best friend started to hit on me,but I saw it as disrespect! Though didn't show it at all...I made him my friend and we became good friends...that breakup made me realize many things including not being in a relationship was more healthier for me...
Just in our normal group hangouts,I felt more happy around this one boy..we weren't that close, but I always appreciate and notice his presence..."its just a crush,let it slide" I told myself as I was looking as he was slowly talking and smiling and treating me well like a slow motion love scene... A crush,is it?
