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It has been six years ever since I have left that place I thought I could call home. Never would have thought things would end this way. Leaving my mother in crystal tears. My father not to be seen. My sister Lillith in her pajamas and twinkling pink room and perfect blonde hair. Only memory I have of her.To young to even accept big brother will never come back to place.
It hurts to think of heartless and selfish I was. I had no choice but to abandon the only person I cared for. I can only imagine her eyes welling in tears and red circles forming underneath I never wanted It to be this way. I promise one day if I can have that opportunity to make you smile again I will and hopefully one day big brother can make up for it.
It's a promise I can't keep. If you are willing to do this I must give up everything I have build up. The name. Your friends. Your home. Your job. I have to go back from where I started everything I did as I thought every step elaborately. If I want to go back I have to give my life just for Lillith. Give my everything g just to see her smile.
These thought came to an end when I realized how late I was. School is one of the things I will never understand. I have to hurry back as soon as possible it's only the first day but I can't make a bad impression already. So I grabbed an outfit I picked out last night in case of this occurring since I like to be careful of what I do and brushed my teeth. I headed to the taxi waiting outside and I decided it's better if I combed my hair during the ride.
It's was an akward silence between both me and the driver. A tense feeling. It reminded me of someone. Lillith and how miserable she must be. I wonder how she feels, at this point life she must know what I did. In our small apartment crying with her parents screaming in the other room and I just left her there. I didn't even say goodbye. Not a love you. Not a word. Maybe her parents parted and perhaps she doesn't feel the same pain as I did. Maybe she just forgot me and everything is fine. I just hope she will be okay no matter what. I want her to live a better life than what I was given. I wished I could have atleast have a picture of her. The issue is people could connect the dots and easily find me for such a small act.
I felt the car swerve into a parking lot and I paid him a sufficient amount. I look up and might I say how gorgeous this school is! The large white building glimmering under the sunshine. How perfectly the large black clock fit in the larger section of the building exactly in the middle. I walk in and blue lockers fill every hallway some already owned. I wrote my schedule on my phone and walked into my first class, Chemistry. It's quite easy once you've watched and been careful with the materials given. It's still quite early and I felt sleepy. But I tried my best to pay as much attention as I could. The professor was just talking about or schedules and our rotations which seems like something very important
"Hey you're Andres right..?" I looked up at my name being called. A figure infront of me. Jet black hair curling infront of his face, all black and red clothing, slender and tanned, and beautiful hazel eyes. This fella is quite attractive but I don't mean it like that. I'm not into guys of course. His smile faded into a weirder one it was like a smirk. He was acting a bit strange. I must have been staring to long weren't I.
"Yeah, why?" I finally responded. I noticed he was slightly taller than me and seemed very nice and patient, perhaps a new friend?
"I just found you very appealing and thought if we could hang out. If that's okay with ya. You just seem really sweet"
"I'm sorry I think we would have to get closer I just- it's just very fast and we have just met sorry." Or you could be a complete idiot and mess things up. I whispered to myself.
I felt a bit guilty but it's just not something ordinary I do... Gosh just think of something fast!
"But we can sit together at lunch if you want"
He grinned and walked away so I suppose that is a yes?
I didn't even get to ask for his name. Oh well, atleast I have one friend. The period lasted a short amount of time and nothing really significant came from her. When the bell finally rung all the students left and I was left with the boy. I should ask him for his name since it a bit rude to come to think of it. We had a small talk when we made our way to our class, apparently his name is Bryce and we share four classes. Being Chemistry, History, Physics and finally Arts and Literature.
Everything was pretty long and boring, just about the schedule and the building and directions and the rules and expectations. I felt exhausted from all their blabbering and I finally made it half-way through the day. I should be awarded for doing God's work in my opinion. I felt like I was on the verge of tears my legs just hurt so much from the cramps of last night. It was just not a good day at all.
I felt a rather harsh tug on my shirt and I saw Bryce behind me and a few other boys. He looked so intimidating at this angle. His shadow from his hair covering half his face and a strong grip on me. Did I do something wrong?
"You're here let's eat together!"
Or maybe I was overthinking.
"Of course..."
"Sorry was I rude?"
I just smiled at him. Bryce is too innocent I know he didn't mean it. It's quite relaxing being with him. I lead them to a nearby table and we sat across from eachother except for Bryce he sat next to me. We were too close to eachother,our legs touched eachother but it doesn't mean anything. We just talked about our aesthetics and sports. I wonder why he was the only person who sat next to me. I'm sure maybe they just don't know me or maybe don't feel comfortable. Yeah that's it.
I stood up to go throw my food out and felt a small tug on my sweater.
"Are you leaving already..?"
