Why are you dancing?
A simple question which can be answered by many simply. But for me, every
time someone ask me that, I feel the emptiness in me. I feel like I'm longing for someone I used to be with. Yes, I surely am.
I remember the days when he's with me, it's priceless. But where is he now? I don't know? Maybe, somewhere in a place where I don't exist.
It's been years but I'm still yearning for your kisses and hugs. I've been doing badly these days I need you to motivate me. Please come back to me.
“It’s a rainy afternoon, everyone. Welcome to Rim FM Afternoon Love Lies Salute where you can tell your love and lies anonymously without your babe knowing. For today’s episode we will start it with a song that everyone knows… Heaven Knows.”
Sky seemed sad this afternoon, it's gray and crying. Driveways were wet and people were rushing just to get in a cab or bus. I watched how the raindrops fell from the sky to the window of the bus I'm riding.
I sighed as I plugged in the other pair of my ear plugs. I raised the volume of my phone while listening to the afternoon fm and stare outside the window. It's really raining heavily like there's no tomorrow.
"Ahm... Excuse me," Someone said as he pats gently my shoulder. I pull off one of my ear plugs and looked at him. My heart beat erratically when I met his eyes and smiling face. "Can I sit here?" He asked and I nodded.
He looked familiar that only my heart could tell who he is. There's a glint of happiness, excitement and hope in my heart as well as unexplainable pain. Who are you? Why am I hurting just because I saw you?
"Do I have dirt in my face?" He asked me uncomfortably that made me shrug. "Then why are you staring?” His tone was mocking me as if he knows me and I know him. His wide smile kinda irritates me because it looks familiar. I heard him chuckled playfully that made my mind crazy. I saw a picture of a guy at the back of my mind.
I looked down to my feet as the tears began to gather at the corner of my eyes. I shouldn't be mistaken but he's dead. I can't assume that he is him. They're different I guess beside I just met this man.
"Nothing, just remembered someone who looked like you." I speak trying my best to not crack my voice. He just hummed and didn't say anything. I can feel his pitiful gaze so I closed my eyes and looked outside the bus window.
Rain, rains go away bring the pain he caused that day.
"You know there are people that's meant to met but not fated together," he said that made me turn to him suddenly. What does he mean? "If you see that person to me then you must really love her but you're not destined to each other." He looked at me and our eyes locked to each other.
The feeling flooded together with those memories I tried to forget. This can't be happening. He isn't him so I must not get affected by his looks. His words stab me at the same time, it gives chills. I don't know why! Fuck this, Come back to me...
"I really do─ But I guessed that person completely forgot me," I smiled bitterly. The bus stops at the station I'm going to. "I need to go. Nice talking with you" I stood up and walk pass by him.
As I exited the bus immediately, I stood up under the waiting shed with some strangers. I looked back and stared at the window where I sat earlier. It's open and he peeks with a big curve in his lips.
"I'm Mixlent and hope I would meet you again." I heard him said as the bus drive away. His name echoed in my mind as the tears flows out from my eyes.
Is it you? I know it's you! You're not dead just like my heart says. I'm hopeful that it could be you. But, somehow a part of me is telling me that it would never be you. A bunch of thoughts halting me to lay a trust for what I've seen.
