I didn't think towns like this existed—ones towered over by trees and drowning in blues and greens. I can't help but press my hand against the window and my eyes bounce from brush to the glimpses of water just beyond the forest. The chilled coast reminds me of those many little rocks. When we would visit Grandma over the summer, I would flock to the beach but hate the pebbles. I never understood why it wasn't golden sand as it is at home. Its emptiness did excite me, though. At home, I would never have the beach to myself.
It's been so long. Mom said ten years. Taking it all in now, I can't help but scold young me for not begging to come back. Yes, California is the dream—land, but not for me.
"Wren, look," my mom says from the front seat. My eyes flock to her window. "Do you remember it at all?"
My Grandmother's house sits between two monstrous fir trees. There's a rope hanging from one of the branches and my mind clicks to when we built my swing together. I suppose the many years haven't tolerated it.
"Yeah, a little. The backyard has the clothesline, right? The one with the white poles. I used to climb it."
"Oh, right. I remember that." She glances at me. "You fell and scraped up your knees. The rest of the trip you complained about your knees and wouldn't go in the water."
My mom turns onto the driveway and parks next to my Grandma's car—an old Corolla. "Alright," she says. "We made it."
I sit back and breathe, "Finally."
"You wanna go in, say hi, then grab the stuff? She's dying to see you."
We get out of the car and ring the doorbell. The brick flower bed stretched along the house entertains me until the door opens.
"Oh my goodness! Look at you!"
Her voice sounds like my childhood. The screen door releases her and suddenly her soft arms are wrapped around me. "Hi, Grandma," I sing as she pulls back and studies my face. Her cool hands rest on my shoulders.
"Wrenley, you're so big now. Last time I saw you, last time you were, what, this big?" She holds out her hand near my chest. "What happened?"
"Ten years happened, Mom," my mother says and receives a tight hug as well.
"Aren't you two cold?" Grandma asks. "Come on, come on, I can put on the fireplace. You used to love the fireplace, Wrenley."
We sit in the living room as Grandma turns on the fireplace and grabs a plate of the lemon cookies I used to love. I take one and bite. Soft, thick, addictive—just as I remember.
"Are you ready for school, dear?" Grandma asks and sits.
"I mean, yeah. It's all very sudden, but I'm sure I'll be just fine."
"That's good. That's good. You know, it's the high school your mother went to."
I look to my mom and she smiles. "Oh, yes. How can I forget Waindale High School?"
"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask.
"It's not like there's another school I could have gone to, kid."
Grandma says, "Well, no, there's the privet school a few minutes away, but you went to the high school just around the corner. You can walk to school, Wrenley. It's just a, I don't know, five, six—minute walk."
"Back home, I'd drive her fifteen minutes to school," my mom tells Grandma. "This is a nice change, then, right? You don't have to leave early with me anymore, Wren."
I smile and take another cookie.
After getting our boxes and bags out of the car, I unpack my things in my new bedroom. My mother will be across the hall while Grandma's room is sat at the end. Being in a house with no men won't be anything new, but living with Grandma will surely have its differences compared to living with just mom. I've already been told to be quiet past ten o'clock when Grandma goes to bed. It's not anything catastrophic, thankfully.
As of now, I have my bedding and clothes and necessities such as toiletries and school supplies. Everything else will be arriving next week.
When I finish stuffing pillows into my pillowcases, I look out the window as it starts to rain. I'll have to get rain boots and an umbrella—things I've never had before. It's crazy thinking that on Monday I'll be at a whole new school with new people and teachers and rules. There's something refreshing about it, though. They're changes I'm welcoming with open arms. It's not like I left much in California, anyway. A friend or two at most. Charisma isn't something I have in abundance—instead, I specialize in being quiet and getting lost in my thoughts. My mom says it's because I'm all her and none of my Dad.
Don't worry, I'm not damaged. Dad left when I was just a baby. It's like getting my ears pierced as an infant; there's no pain that I can remember.
The next morning, I wake up to my Grandma watching T.V. as she drinks her coffee. Old game shows play on repeat. "Where's Mom?" I ask.
"Oh, she's just on the porch. She's on the computer, you know, working on her writing."
I nod and slip outside. I find my Mom sitting under a blanket with her laptop on her lap. There's a mug of coffee on the wicker table in front of her, steaming into the crisp morning air. "Hi," I say.
