Some night I don't sleep I wet my bed with felling tears, mess myself up with it, I wish I was never born and wished for it all to be over, I pray for a silent death,
I always sleep with that but wake up disappointed the next morning,to find out am still alive.
I mean what's the benefits of living when you have nothing to live for.
My name is April fields am a werewolf, am from moonlight pack located in a small town in london,
I escape from my pack some months ago.
So now am a rouge,a lone wolf,a wolf without a pack,
I stay in a small apartment in another town,
I got up from bed like always feeling tired and emotionless, I walk to my bathroom and soak myself with hot water but I could not still soak my pain,
after some minutes I got out, I walk to my room and sat near my standing mirror to dry my hair, I was shocked when I saw my appearance, I have lost my smiles my beauty, my eyes that use to be teal green I can't even recognize the color it has turned to, I look like I have age thousands of that's even possible.
I think back to how I ended up this way.
Two months ago
April POV
Me and my mom used to lived in moonlight pack
I was born there.
But that was not my mom pack where she was born,
My mom was sent out of her pack by reason best known to her,she has refuse to tell me the reason,just like how she never discuss about my dad or want me to raise the topic., So I let her be.
My mom told me she was save by the former luna of my pack, when she was about to be kill by some rouges so they accepted her and took her in on the condition that she was to serve them and they will provide her with food and shelter.
So my mom practically almost did all the pack house
Chores and I help her too.
There's a rumour I have been hearing about my mom
I don't know if it's true, I heard my mom used to sleep around with men, and that she has practically slept with all the unmated male even the alpha, they said she became his girlfriend after the luna past away, when I confronted my mom she told me it was a long time ago, and she was not matured enough then.
My childhood was the best part of my life if you ask me now, cause them I was just a little innocent girl that don't understand how this world works.
Well it was cut short when I was 10,that was when my night mare's begin.
The Alpha gave my mom two rooms at the back of the kitchen,
Alpha look is a ruthless werewolf fear by many for his brutality,he challenge other Alpha killthem and took over there property, so he was fear among other werewolves. After he lost his luna he has been molesting me, then I was 10, nobody was concerned they keep saying am a whore like my mom and told there children to stay away from me, so I just figure out am alone, I stop schooling when I was 15 cause I was continuously been bully in school,
Even my mom could not stop the Alpha when she found out cause he was stronger than her.
So I don't really blame her, I only blame my fate.
One Afternoon I was in the kitchen trying to make cereal,when my mom came in,. "Hi darling, hi mom I greeted," how is your day going dear? Fine mom, ok dear, "I was about going for shopping with Kate, Kate is my mom best friend and only friend, she was the
only one who stick around even when advice by everyone not to.
"baby I was wondering if there's anything you want me to get for you, she ask? No am fine mom, I replied, ok I will be on my way then,bye,she kiss me and left, after I was done eating I decide to take a shower and rest,I went straight to the bathroom
And soak myself with hot water, wow it always warm me up,I was still relaxing and did not notice when the door was open,then it hit me that too familiar smell I hate and really want to get rid of was in front of me,I raise my head up and my eyes met with the Alpha and I no exactly what he came for.
His hungry eyes met with my,he came closer and drag me out of the bathroom into the room,he threw me on top of my bed and order me to pleasure myself still I cum for him,after he brought out chain from his back and chain me like always and rape me repeatedly when he was satisfied, and was about going out me and my wolf took courage to speak even if we know we could die for it, Alpha don't you think it's high time you end this,he turn towards me came closer and I could feel him trying to dominate me with his alpha power, my wolf and I refuse to summit so he drag my head and took me into the bathroom and pull my head inside the bathtub water when he saw how I was struggling,he left my head,I brought my head out and was out of breath,then he said"April let this sounds as a warning to u then he left,
I came out of the bathroom feeling dirty and I could also feel my wolf restlessness,she was angry as me and she really want to kill the Alpha,but we can't cause then the whole pack will come for my head and even kill my mom,so for now we have to endure,I went back to the bathroom to wash myself up but no matter how I wash and scrape I still felt dirty inside.
