Rain ran down the window as the streets gleamed. it's sunday and its a perfect day to have a mental breakdown, [h/l] [h/c] young woman laying down on her stomach, using her elbow to support her upper body, tears streaming down from her beautiful features like a waterfall, [l/n] [y/n], a teenager who was currently doodling on the plain page, scribbling his name.
Tryna figure out,
Where it went wrong,
Where she lost him and herself.
Turning pages, writing volumes
Remembering the good, forgetting the bad.
For her, she want a new life,
And she want it with him.
But it doesn't exist.
It faded away slowly.
'Y/n-san, lets break up.'
His words from the earlier event kept repeating in her head on loop as if it was haunting her while the teen scribbling his name faster and harder on the paper, not bother to wipe off the fresh tears that was streaming down her face.
'Im sorry y/n-san..i used you so i can get the girl i love the most. im so sorry..'
Am i okay?
Yes i am, with every word and every thought
I mean why not, i've known everything since the very start
Am i trying to play it cool? maybe yes
Am i a fool or over-smart?
Everything bad exists
Happen to me
What did i ever do to deserve all that.
Maybe im bad in their stories and mine
That's why I get all hate
Maybe that's why i suffer in silence.
The tears that have fallen for you are different from the tears that have fallen because of you.
I love you so much,
even words can't express the feeling.
With every breath,
With every beat,
My heart takes your name.
I feel so blessed to have you in my life,
You're the reason, i smile more often.
You are the light when im lost in the darkness.
You're the energetic while im the opposite.
My heart never got attached to someone like this before,
but then you came around and stole it like it was truly yours.
Now..things changed.
'Let's stick together till we gray and old! pinky promise!'
Where did the promise go?
'I love youu <3'
Those three words, do you really mean it from the start? Do you really love me?
'Y/n-sannn!!! How's your dayy??'
Where is the question you used to asked?
Where is your energetic personality you have when you're with me?
'Y/n-san..can i kiss you?'
Those kiss we used to share, the way your lips fit perfectly against mine..where were you now?
'Cuddles timee!!'
I want you to hug me when i feel no warmth..the way i want you to hold me tight in you arms..but now its empty and cold.
'...so i can get the girl i love the most.'
Those words..between me and her..why would you choose her? Is she better than me? Is she prettier? is she smarter? Is she everything you need? Do you really love her that much? What's so special about her.
What about me?...Am i not enough?
'..we still can be friends though..'
Friends..It's better than strangers but have you ever thought about me like how i thought about you everyday?
Why would you do this to me? After everything we did was nothing? Ever since, they got locked up in a juvenile, i lost myself until coincidence came.
And thats where you found me, you're the light of my dark path.
You're everything i need but you didn't return the same favor.
After everything i did, just so you can notice how much i love you and this is what i get in return?
Pain.
I dont want to be abandon, not again. not until they came back from that hellhole but that doesn't mean i want you to leave me too.
The teenager had enough, she stood up and torn the paper into pieces, throwing it somewhere around the room sending the paper flying around onto the air.
Her usual shining [e/c] are now dull puffy [e/c] are full with tears, her hair is messy, she brought her palms up and wipe the tears that was freshly streaming down from her dull expression.
The rain outside started to fall harder and harder every second, slowly, [y/n] walked towards her door, going to the living room and sit on the huge couch.
She looked at the coffee table, dreamingly, all she can think about is him. she want him to feel the same way like how the way she felt towards him.
all she need to do is be HER.
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baji keisuke x reader
started: 23.10.21
status: ongoing
